[Mother’s Day] Dear Mama

MANILA, Philippines – Whoever said that the simplest words are the hardest ones to say out loud should be commended. Throughout the 19 years of my existence, I had rarely said the following words to my mother, Mrs. Trinia Fabula Fabrero. 

I don’t know why, but I blame it on my inability to express my deepest, most sincere feelings. Unlike my mom who’s a social butterfly, I tend to shut the world out and clam up when it comes to my emotions. 

But as I put these simple words into writing, Mama, I hope to make you understand how much you mean to me.

Thank you

Thank you for everything.

I know that being a mother to 6 children is a tough job, but you never gave up on us. I know that having 4 teenagers, each with clashing personalities, is enough to cause headaches or make you sick, but you still love us.

Thank you for nagging us each and every day to clean our rooms, tidy up our clutter, fold our clothes properly and do our share of the chores. I know that you are just preparing us for the future.

Thank you for supporting us through all our endeavors, may it be our academics or other extracurricular activities. I know that you worry about my chosen path, that I would be placed in constant danger; but you still allowed me to take up Journalism in the University of the Philippines. For this, I thank you.

Thank you for entrusting me with this opportunity to learn, to grow and to fulfill my dream.

I know that you don’t fully understand what it is that I do with my life, but you still allow me to carry on. Thank you for the acceptance that you’ve shown.

Thank you for encouraging me, especially during the times that I almost gave up. 

I’m sorry

I want to say sorry for all my shortcomings, especially in reminding you of the fact that you are the best mom in the whole world. I should have done my part in reminding you of that fact. 

Remember when you asked me what I want for my 18^th birthday, and I said I wanted a party? You went all out and gave me the best debut party I could ask for. 

I’m sorry if I forgot to tell you how happy I was at that moment and how thankful I am. I know that sometimes money is tough, but you still made it possible for me to celebrate with such grandiose.

I’m sorry for the mess that I call my room. I’m sorry for the constant worry that you have to undergo each time I go home late. I’m sorry for all the fighting that I have started among my siblings.

I’m sorry for making a lot of excuses when it’s my turn to wash the dishes. I’m sorry.

I love you 

I love how you wake up at exactly 3:00 each morning just to make sure that everything we need is in order. Even the fact that you weren’t able to have enough sleep the night before doesn’t hamper you.  

I love the fact that you still don’t know how to use the computer, even if we are already in the modern age where almost everyone uses one. 

I love the fact that you call our house every day, even if things in your office get too hectic, just to check up on us. In fact, I had come to anticipate the time that you usually make your calls.

I love the fact that you always ask me to accompany you whenever you go to the grocery or to the mall, either because you need someone to push the cart or someone to verify if your choice of shoes or clothes are okay. 

I love how you always ask us why we didn’t inherit your porcelain white skin and then blame it on the genes of Papa. I love the fact that even if my siblings and I are in the midst of fighting, you would find something funny that would inevitably stop us. 

I love you from the bottom of my heart.

You’re the best

You’re the best mom that I could ever ask for. I know that we rarely meet eye to eye but I wouldn’t trade you for anyone else.

I know that you wouldn’t read this, unless I or one of my siblings show it to you (and we both know that we are too lazy to organize something). 

But I hope that through this cheesy letter you would know how much you mean to me, and to my siblings, Irah, Pau, Renz, Cel, Jr.

You’re the best and happy mother’s day, Mama! – Rappler.com

 

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